Dear Sloan at 4 months

Dear Sloan,

This past month has been a busy one (hence your letter coming so late.. You witnessed your first (and what will be only) Tragically Hip concert. Had your first airplane ride and attended your first wedding. You will always be known as the youngest and most snuggled guest at Dama’s beautiful wedding. 

I notice We don’t have those quiet moments together that I had with Z, but perhaps you have one better as I know how quickly this this time is and I’m doing my best to savour your smallness and these fleeting moments of your babyhood. Watching you sleep, knowing I should put you down but you’ll never be 4 months old again so I should enjoy cuddles while I can. This has likely lead to our current dilemma of your terrible sleeping. You will nap on someone or in the car but the moment I put you down your eyes pop open….the term I’m heard tossed around is power napper. (Fits you to a T!) 

We had previously been doing so well with nighttime sleep that I think I got a bit cocky, the 4 month sleep regression came and blindsided me. There has been a lot of coffee consumed over the past month, nights are long and mornings seem to come so soon. Lucky for all of us you are such a delightful joyous little girl. Hobbies include giggling at your sister, pulling hair, drooling and kicking your legs. You are never still, not even for a moment it’s tiring and somewhat mesmerizing.

We just had your 4 month appointment, you’re 15lbs, 25inches and every bit perfect.  As sleep deprived and deranged as I feel lately, you and your sister bring me more joy than I ever thought possible (more grey hair and mental health instability as well) I’m so excited to see what the next few months will bring.

Love you sugar pie,


Dear Sloan at 2 months

Dear Sloan,

You have gained 2lbs and grown an inch and a half since last month. Your head is getting sturdier and you are now that much closer to being able to defend yourself from your sisters physical declarations of love. You are so loved by this family even Brooklyn can’t walk past you without sneaking in for a kiss.

This month has seen some more firsts for you—the drive in, the cottage and dunking your toes in Georgian Bay. Somehow you seem more portable than your sister was at this age, but I think I just have a better handle on this whole shebang. You have started smiling and cooing and you are just so wonderful. Your eyes twinkle when you smile and I feel as though you understand more than you should. You nap best on car rides, walks or just in my arms. No matter how carefully I put you down you perk up right after I’ve set you down. I have less baby snuggling time available at the moment as Zoë requires two hands and a ton of attention lately. In between fielding requests for snacks and to put dresses on dollies I try to snag some time for just us. Some mornings we get a snuggle and chat in bed, or we sneak downstairs and I have my coffee and you talk to the bird on your playmat. Routines are such a fleeting thing this first year so I’m enjoying wherever we make time to have a little quiet time together.

You’ve started smiling at Zoë and looking for her–you cannot miss her she is the wild hurricane of a girl  we have living here. When you spot her you smile and she runs over to you to try to make you laugh. A lesser baby would be afraid but not you my darling, you stare this crazy girl in the face and laugh along with her. I feel so blessed to have you–keep growing strong and awesome little squish.

I hope that this ferocious love between you two lasts forever. I know it will for me.

I love you too much forever (our family motto you can thank Zoë for)



Weekend report: July 23-24th edition

We had a pretty perfect summer weekend around these parts. Garret had a flex day Friday so we piled in the car and headed to the Severn for a few hours. Time up there is so precious to me…part of my soul resides on that river and getting to be there with my kids is amazing. After some gentle prodding we managed to get Zoë to jump in (to tons of hooting and hollering) and do some paddling around. The girl who was once afraid of the bath was yelling “jump again Daddy!!!” And leaping off the dock into Garret’s arms. So proud of my girl!! We headed home mid afternoon to prepare for family visiting for dinner. We only provided the location and Garret’s BBQ skills and my Mum provided everything else…talk about easy hostess duties. Jo was visiting from LA for only 3 hours so it was a frantic visit but just lovely to be together for a bit.

Saturday morning we took the girls and Brooklyn for a walk downtown and back. It was hot and I thought I wasn’t going to make it back at one point but we did it! Puttered around the house and Mum came for pita pizza dinner.

Sunday Garret worked on the backroom and I took the girls to the splash pad/park with Ashley and Maddie. Z calls it the spray park and was still quite hesitant to get wet. Home to do stuff around the house and I finished off the night with a 90 min yoga class. This morning sees Zoë sleeping in, me downstairs with a coffee and Sloan playing on her play mat. Not sure what the rest of the day will hold but I’m sufficiently caffeinated so it’s off to a good start!

This very morning

Sloan slept last night from 9:30-4am had a snack then fell back asleep until 7am. It really is miraculous what a super good sleep does for you after a good 6 weeks of less than adequate sleep at night. This has also been the first morning since she was born that the stars aligned for me to have some quiet coffee fueled morning time. Zoë is still asleep so it’s Sloan, Brooklyn and I (along with a glorious cup of Sumatra) chilling in the backroom. Mornings with two so far haven’t seen me getting to my coffee right away, unless Mum is here to help…so I’m calling this morning a win. Chaos reigns when Z is up demanding Cheerios or M & M’s for breakfast, so I shall enjoy this brief quiet. My smallest gal and a cup of coffee. Lovely. Happy Saturday to all.

Dear Sloan (1 month)

Dear Sloan,

You are one month old–10lbs 5oz, 23 inches long and so totally, completely amazing. I was reminded recently of the quote “the days are long but the years are short”and it is just so applicable to this season of life our family is in. You and I have lived four lifetimes and yet also only 5 minutes this past month. I cannot believe you have been here for a month and I also can’t believe you haven’t always been the tiniest member of our family. I am doing my best to savour this crazy newborn stage because I know first hand how quickly it will end. Realistically I’m not savouring all the quality time we spend together at night. However if you are anything like Zoë we will have many more years of togetherness in the midnight hours!

I feel that in the past two years I have forgotten how to have a newborn. I am not sure if you are more easy going than your sister or if maybe I haven’t forgotten so much and looking after you is now just a second nature ability. You’re a pretty great but really loud sleeper, an efficient eater, and you do this funny thing with your leg that reminds me of a synchronized swimmer. Your main hobbies to date are pooping in a freshly changed diaper and accepting a mauling from your big sister.

It’s only been a month so I don’t really know you that well but you are just exactly who we needed to complete our family. I’m so excited for all the exciting changes to come this year and all the adventures we have in store as a family.

May you always have this calm temperament, the ability to tolerate your sisters love, and thus snuggly personality…(your Dad and I deserve one kid who loves to cuddle.)

You are loved beyond measure.