The road so far 


My friend Lisa welcomed her new son last night and looking at pictures of him this morning I realized suddenly that Sloan isn’t a newborn anymore. Somehow we have muddled our way through and have survived the early days.  I don’t think she had changed at all until I look back at photos and can see how we have all grown and blossomed together since May.

 Life with two kids has been more physically and emotionally draining than I had imagined. To counter that (and I’m assuming to keep people having babies) it has also been so heart exploding and breathtaking. 

Zoë is in LOVE with Sloan, what appears to be an all consuming obsessed sort of love, beautiful but occasionally bordering on crazy. She always wants to be near her, touching her, talking to and for her. Her greatest joy of late was when we went camping and had to take the truck. Their car seats were next to each other and Zoë held Sloan’s hand the whole way… A few days later we were back in the van and she was so upset the chairs were too far so she couldn’t reach her sister. 

Just now I’m starting to feel as though I have a handle on things. We have small routines and I have starte developing ways to do things with two…getting in and out of the car, getting ready to go out etc. Our next big challenge will be organizing Zoë’s bedroom to better accommodate two girls and all their stuff. Also the larger challenge of getting them both sleeping in the same room.  I know that as with everything in life, time marches on and things work themselves out. Am trying not to worry as I know we always find a way.

Mornings lately have seen Zo sleeping in and Sloan and I coming downstairs so I can have a coffee before the noise starts. Garret has started leaving coffee ready for me in the mornings—I just have to put the kettle on when I come downstairs.  (It’s a small gesture that means so much) Sloan hangs out on her playmat and I have my coffee…I try to at least get her ready before I begin the crazy for the day. It’s my circus and I’m working on having the most dynamic juggling act in town.

Dear Sloan at 3 months


Dear Sloan,

Three months have passed since you were born and already memories of your early days are blurring and fading. It feels like a lifetime ago you joined our family. I’m still learning how to manage you and your rambunctious sister at times, but usually you’ll find me just schlepping the two of you to wherever we need to go.

You are a treasure and a joy and I’m always being told what a beautiful baby you are…strangers remark on your gorgeous blue eyes at the grocery store, or your sweet smile at the doctors office. I am glad you are so laid back because your sister and your dog are pretty high maintenance and I’m not sure I could handle another of those! You wake up smiling and tooting every morning and it’s such a delight. Your smile keeps me putting one foot in front of the other until the coffee kicks in. 

This past month has seen some road trips, Weber’s, camping adventures and roughly 750 kisses from Zoë. You’ll never remember but she will yell “her smiling at me Mama” and she is just SO thrilled to be able to make you smile. She is determined to teach you how to do ballet, walk, colour and eat ice cream…oh and swim like a mermaid. You have a lot of learning in your future wee girl. The sisterly love affair seems to go both ways as you love to watch her and will track her with your eyes as she flits about the room. I have a bad feeling you are going to be an early walker just so you can play.

We are on no sort of schedule thanks to it being summer and your day time naps are brutal because of that. I think you’re afraid of missing out… More second child problems I guess. Sleep while you can my dear cause life around these parts seems to get pretty exciting the older you get.

I love you more than I can put into words

Love,

Mama

Dear Sloan at 4 months

Dear Sloan,

This past month has been a busy one (hence your letter coming so late.. You witnessed your first (and what will be only) Tragically Hip concert. Had your first airplane ride and attended your first wedding. You will always be known as the youngest and most snuggled guest at Dama’s beautiful wedding. 

I notice We don’t have those quiet moments together that I had with Z, but perhaps you have one better as I know how quickly this this time is and I’m doing my best to savour your smallness and these fleeting moments of your babyhood. Watching you sleep, knowing I should put you down but you’ll never be 4 months old again so I should enjoy cuddles while I can. This has likely lead to our current dilemma of your terrible sleeping. You will nap on someone or in the car but the moment I put you down your eyes pop open….the term I’m heard tossed around is power napper. (Fits you to a T!) 

We had previously been doing so well with nighttime sleep that I think I got a bit cocky, the 4 month sleep regression came and blindsided me. There has been a lot of coffee consumed over the past month, nights are long and mornings seem to come so soon. Lucky for all of us you are such a delightful joyous little girl. Hobbies include giggling at your sister, pulling hair, drooling and kicking your legs. You are never still, not even for a moment it’s tiring and somewhat mesmerizing.

We just had your 4 month appointment, you’re 15lbs, 25inches and every bit perfect.  As sleep deprived and deranged as I feel lately, you and your sister bring me more joy than I ever thought possible (more grey hair and mental health instability as well) I’m so excited to see what the next few months will bring.

Love you sugar pie,

Mama

Dear Sloan at 2 months


Dear Sloan,

You have gained 2lbs and grown an inch and a half since last month. Your head is getting sturdier and you are now that much closer to being able to defend yourself from your sisters physical declarations of love. You are so loved by this family even Brooklyn can’t walk past you without sneaking in for a kiss.

This month has seen some more firsts for you—the drive in, the cottage and dunking your toes in Georgian Bay. Somehow you seem more portable than your sister was at this age, but I think I just have a better handle on this whole shebang. You have started smiling and cooing and you are just so wonderful. Your eyes twinkle when you smile and I feel as though you understand more than you should. You nap best on car rides, walks or just in my arms. No matter how carefully I put you down you perk up right after I’ve set you down. I have less baby snuggling time available at the moment as Zoë requires two hands and a ton of attention lately. In between fielding requests for snacks and to put dresses on dollies I try to snag some time for just us. Some mornings we get a snuggle and chat in bed, or we sneak downstairs and I have my coffee and you talk to the bird on your playmat. Routines are such a fleeting thing this first year so I’m enjoying wherever we make time to have a little quiet time together.

You’ve started smiling at Zoë and looking for her–you cannot miss her she is the wild hurricane of a girl  we have living here. When you spot her you smile and she runs over to you to try to make you laugh. A lesser baby would be afraid but not you my darling, you stare this crazy girl in the face and laugh along with her. I feel so blessed to have you–keep growing strong and awesome little squish.

I hope that this ferocious love between you two lasts forever. I know it will for me.

I love you too much forever (our family motto you can thank Zoë for)

Love,

Mama

Weekend report: July 23-24th edition

We had a pretty perfect summer weekend around these parts. Garret had a flex day Friday so we piled in the car and headed to the Severn for a few hours. Time up there is so precious to me…part of my soul resides on that river and getting to be there with my kids is amazing. After some gentle prodding we managed to get Zoë to jump in (to tons of hooting and hollering) and do some paddling around. The girl who was once afraid of the bath was yelling “jump again Daddy!!!” And leaping off the dock into Garret’s arms. So proud of my girl!! We headed home mid afternoon to prepare for family visiting for dinner. We only provided the location and Garret’s BBQ skills and my Mum provided everything else…talk about easy hostess duties. Jo was visiting from LA for only 3 hours so it was a frantic visit but just lovely to be together for a bit.

Saturday morning we took the girls and Brooklyn for a walk downtown and back. It was hot and I thought I wasn’t going to make it back at one point but we did it! Puttered around the house and Mum came for pita pizza dinner.

Sunday Garret worked on the backroom and I took the girls to the splash pad/park with Ashley and Maddie. Z calls it the spray park and was still quite hesitant to get wet. Home to do stuff around the house and I finished off the night with a 90 min yoga class. This morning sees Zoë sleeping in, me downstairs with a coffee and Sloan playing on her play mat. Not sure what the rest of the day will hold but I’m sufficiently caffeinated so it’s off to a good start!